wow, haven't wrote in here in a long time.

life's been so busy lately.

work, school, family, and boyfriend <3

everythings changing, 
back with old friends,
new ones come and go.

turned 18 on tuesday, 
big life change.

reallly depressed for these past few weeks, 
i think i might know why,
but i don;t want that to be the reason,
so i try not to think about it.

other than that, 
things are okay,
could be alot better

graduating in march,
appartment in june?
cross your fingers.

havent updated in a LONG ass time.

my life currently consists of,
my boyfriend. <3
work at rainforest cafe :]
and school. : (   [ still HATE LO]


i leave for florida in a few hours.

i really am not that excited to go.

is it wrong of me to have worries about a certain someone when im gone?
like i really dont know what to do with myself right now at all.
i hate this, it needs to go away.
i guess you could call it doubts?.. or worries.. but i dont know what the feeling is.
but i cant sleep at all.
and after tonight, i REALLY dont want to leave, especially because of how the night ended. :/


spring break '07 - make it a memorable one <3

love you all.
see you in 12 days :]

x0x0
marissa lynn

Life is great.
Havent been this happy in a long time.

Boyfriend = completely amazing. 
i 'm really happy i decided to give him a chance.

All my friends are doing awesome.
Havent seen all of us this happy all at one time before.
i love it.

christmas is in a few weeks.
happiest season of the year for me.
things wil be different without my grandma, but ya know, we will have to work with it.
then its the start of a new year.
jeeze, so pumped up for that, 
looking forward to the start of new things.

Life has setteled down a bit,
and i'm smiling for real this time.
.
my grandma died tuesday, november 14, 2006.
i was at her bedside all the way to the end,
one of the worst things to experience,
but it was for the better of things, 
shes in a better place.

school is okay.
behind in work.
bc of what happened, missed a week.
i need to get caught up.
i mite get out of LO, and try to graduate early this year.
lets hope it h appens, i really hate it there.

work  =  love it.
i love how im always doing something.
my boss's are cool for the most part,
and the people i work with are amazing.
[new group to be with all the time ]

met a boy.
were together
as of 11-25-06
im so happy.
its taken a while for someone to make me feel this way.

my sister amanda nd babey chace came home
i cried when they left
i cant handle them living in FL nemore
i miss them a lot, its hard.

other than that,
lifes okay.
bay city = oaky times, but not as much as used to be.

dad isnt handling things too good,
but idk how to help him out.

nothign else is new,
work, 
school,
friends.
end of story.

besides i leave for a week,
and everyone seems as if they changed.
im sick of this shyte.
whatever, grow up.

im outie,
<33
marissa

life is nothing but upside down smiles, and tears.

my grandmother is in her last few weeks of life.
i sat with her by her bedside all day saturday,
and bawled my eyes out.
i didnt know what to do with myself at all.
life is going to be completely different without her.
she has taught me so many things.
i wish this whole process would go faster,
so she woudlnt have to suffer anymore like she is now.

then.
comes to be my parents dont tell me,
but my moms dad has to get yet another heart surgery.
tomorrow.
my parents decided they didnt want to tell me because of everything else that is going on.
i dont know how much worse things could get.

my sister isnt moving home from florida for another year.
found that out this past week too.
i miss my nephew so much.
none of us get to see him grow up,
i looked up to my sister for everything,
now its like shes barely there anymore.

exams sucked.

friends = amazing still.
there always there for me to turn to, and listen to me when i need to talk to someone. i love them.

"friends"- that i used to have.
forget alll of you.
your a bunch of ass holes, that dont give a fukin shyte, and can think you can do whatever the hell you want, and yell at me for something thats not bad.
.forget all of you .


blah.
planning each day as it comes along.
i guess well see how it goes.


i miss my best friend really so much.
he was there for me, things happened,
and now it has changed.
i cant stand seeing him with other people.


[i hate my life rite now ]

She said she is ready to go home.
Why _not take her out of her misery?
Take her to a place she belongs.
I dont know how much ^longer she can deal with it.
Its putting down not only her, but our family too.


Things in my house are rough,
family has gotten really close since the end of summer.


I'll update later.
hope things are okay for everyone else.

hjikghasHAPPYakhgagsh

for the most part.

work is amazing.
im glad i got life going again.

guys are retarted.
cant make up my mind.
but i dont think about it.

friends = amazing.
love the new ones i met.
miss the old ones i had. 

life is moving way to fast,
it needs to slow down.
or i need to think about my future :/
who knows whats going to happen.

Turned 17 today :]

what a year it has been.

i love my friends, thanks for all the great times.

powder puff - JUNIORS '08 BABY!!!

homecoming - fun - well for the most part, the after part was the best.

nothing else is new,
got a job at rainforest cafe!
i start next week, come and visit me :)

i miss my friends alot.
especially those that don't live in LO.
and the ones that to live in LO that dont hang out :[

homecoming pics on myspace.
check em out!

my life has been so crazzi lately.
but i kinda love it.

powderpuff game was amazing.
We made history.
good game though seniors.

my friends mean everything to me.
i really dont know what i would do without them.

im offically not moving,
i wish i could, but it wont work out.

homecoming is saturday.
excited to dress up, dance, and then maybe party?
i have no idea what im doin after yet.

school is good,
my grades are good,
my parents are happy.

My best friends birthday is today.
YET AGAIN, didnt get to see him,
it makes me sad.
but hell always be in my heart, so it counts.

so thers this new boy,
i like him, but idk if its mutual at all.
i guess well see how it goes.
doubt nething will happen, bc it never does with me.
but hey , life goes on rite?

nothin else is new,
miss some of my friends,
feels like im losing one that i got REALLY close too :(

Comment me,
tell me whats new in your life.
<333

I was born to tell you I love you

its that a song already

I get a B in originality

and its true I cant go on without you

your smile makes me see clear

if you could only see in the mirror what I see.

thinking about so many things rite now.

no longer am i listening to what people say.

lately it hasnt been the truth at all.

my bestest friend is my one hero, i love him so much.

bay city is so much missed, i need to think that through.

no promises are being made at all,
because i really could not tell you what i want,
or what is going to happen,
only time will tell.

ilove you all,
well the ones really there for me :)
thanks for everything.

you know who you are.

being home tonite
sucked.


i hate how ppl live in a different city.
because of that i got depressed.
i hated it.
i didnt get to see chaz, or sara with no h.

hm,
nothings new at all
tinas house tomorrow nite. :)

leave me a comment,
make me happy, and tell me how ive changed something in your life, if anything at all. :)

my friends make me laugh so much.
it makes me happy when i'm with them.

school is good.
classes are fun.
teachers are cool.

met some cool people this year.
i'm looking forward to a great time.

i've let go of what was needed.
new things have come about,
i'm a happy girl.

i know its been rainy nd wet,
but i do really love this weather.

I love my friends.
<3
they amaze me. :)


i really like him. :/

here we go again,
another summer has come to an ending.
i was going to live with my grandma up north this summer, but i met some amazing people that have made me change my mind.
that has to be one of the best choices ive made in a long time.

I want to say i love all my friends, the ones i knew
and the ones i have met, for making it a memorable time.
it has been one of the greatest summers of my life, and am looking forward to alot more times with you all.
everyone has been with me through thick and thin, and helped me through it all.
ive gone from being shy and not so open,
to wanting to meet new people everyday,
and wanting to try to new things.
you all helped me out in so many ways,
and made so many memories for me.

I'm starting junior year,
and its going to be a blast.
im looking forward to meeting new people,
and getting closer to the friends i have now.
I seriously do not know what i would do without any of you.

i almost lost a best friend this summer..
but with help from others we are together again.
I left behind those who are not needed and do no good, and have taken in some awesome people that mean the world to me.

I don't know what else to say about any of you,
all i know is that i'm happy that i met all of you,
and am so happy were friends.
Let's keep it that way and make more memories and never forget the old.

Have a good first day of school.
love you all.

Marissa Lynn

being grounded sucks.
i have lost so much trust in so many people.
but i have learned my lesson, and also gave up some things.
or well at least trying to, its not that easy.

this week has been boring, i feel like ive lost my friends because i havent seen any of them really at all, only for a few minutes.

i also lost my best friend,
my love,
the only one i relied on.
life goes on,
ill learn to deal with it.

i am free sunday now.
but im taken that nite already.
and monday to, i cant wait :)

school starts in a few days.
im excited to see my old friends,
and meet new ones.
Junior year baby.
lets make the best of it.

thanks to all of you who made my summer the shyte.
im glad i stayed here, and didnt move in with my grandma.
love you all.

fiends - mean everything to me. :)

there is one that i seen 2 times this week for little amount of time, somethings wrong, i wish i knew what it was. ilu boi. <3

nothings new with me.
hookah is one of the best things ever.
bama [FU]
sara with no h
and brad lolz
(jake freer [ FU] when ur there... )
great times
thanks for those :)

meeting new people is complete happiness.
its even better when...
you find you your alot alike.
you basically hang out with the same people.
personalitees totally mix.
you both dont care about things, unless you need to.
we understand eachother and where were comin from.
but then, get hurt by the same exact thing.
<3 ya gurlie.


neway.
last day of work tomorrow.
bay city tom - tuesday.
no work anymore for the summer, lets hang out, if im free.
hope you all have a good weekend.
i want phone calls :)


ps. - im srry for how i acted tonite...i dont want things to be this way with us.. i hate it :'(

i thought i was going to give up on basically everything.
things got to a point this week when i didnt know what to do with my life anymore.

i started hanging out with my friends again.
talked to them, and life is grand.
i serioulsy dont know what i would do without them.

ortontucky-the shit. its so much fun out there. <3

4 days left of work!
my summer can finally begin, of whats left of it.

all of YOU, have a good weekend.
call me and lets chill.

friday megan and i drove up to bay city.
busiest weekend ever.
we did so much, it was lots of fun though.
got to see kyle nd jason, as usual.
sunday we went to cedar point.
that was lots o fun.
monday we drove home.
i hung out with some sweet people, i missed everyone.
now i'm home and back to work.
only like 6 days left of work, im kinda excited.



i love bay city.
everytime i come home things are all fuked up./
i hate it i cant stand it anymore.
i just want to get out of here and never come home.
i heard some of the worst things anyone could say to me last nite.
i cried all nite long, it was horrible.
why did i have to mess up so bad on some things?
i wish you could forgive me, and we could at least be friends. :/


lets hang out this week.
my car is kinda broken, but it drives.
ortonville on thursday with jake freer to see chaz.
movies tomorrow nite with amanda and some people.
call me nd let me kno if you want to hang out.

i try.
i sit and think things are okay.
definetly not.
so i give up.
its not worth it anymore.
i want things back.
it wont happen.


bay city tomorrow with megan.
cedar point on sunday.
coming home monday.
cant wait to get out of this fukin town.

hope you all have a good weekend
see you around.